It’s almost a decade now entering into 10th
year as a Professional and also as a Chennaite. Exactly the same day in 2004 after written my
last exam boarded to Chennai without even knowing the destination with Rs.2000
in hand given by my brother and
a lecturer cum friend Mr.JeyPee
and a pair of cloths. Landed at 1.00 AM and knocked the door of college
senior’s room at 2.00 AM. The only word I told them was that I am from SSP,
Puthur and they never asked anymore questions and let me in.
Lot of things has changed since then, a teen aged boy
who was known to be fast, straight, always
tries to be perfect , emotional, hated &
feared of losing , and with a tag of “Oil King” (i.e., We as Electrical
Engineers call people who has close relationships with staffs as Oil since Oil
is used to cool transformers and machines the same way I had cool relationships
with all the staffs in college and they were ready to listen whatever I said
whether it is true or not), Now become a man (at least in terms of aging if not
by maturity) who is rather slow, diplomatic (afraid of talking even if there is conflicts) , ready to accept
failures and not so perfect or even close to my own standards I had set during
my early years.
I always had answers for everything and solutions, advice
for every other personals issue rather than my own issues but that remains unchanged
till now as I am still struggling to find solutions to my own issues. The other things which remains unchanged is the
emotionality and fear to lose human relationships, always thinking of what
others will think of me, the habit of not so comfortable when eating or spending others money and the love for cricket and music
I had the habit
of getting jobs wherever I attended an interview , attended total
of 9 interviews in 9 years and got selected in 8 of them only rejected
by Robert Bosch since they thought I am a graduate and completed the technical
interview to only realize during personal interview that I have done only diploma.
I have rejected 4 of them due to higher studies and joined in 4 but worked only
in 2 of them all these 9 years.
Never had a goal throughout my life even remember an advice
from one of my class mate called Mr.Prabhu
on my autograph note referred to a poem to state how a goal less life would be,
பாலனாய் கழித்த நாளும் பனிமலர்க் கோதை மார்தம்
மேலனாய் கழித்த நாளும் மெலிவொடு மூப்பு வந்து
கோலனாய் கழித்த நாளும் குறிக்கோள் இல்லாது கெட்டேன்
But not sure I have learned from the advice or changed
after all these 9 years rather always accepted whatever came my way. Always
dreamt of becoming an IAS during school days and a Software Engineer during
high schools but accidently joined in Electrical Engineering thanks to my uncle,
then with my Electrical Engineering Diploma joined as Branch Administrator in a
networking company which my brother arranged for me in his friend’s office
later that friend become a singer if known earlier I could have stayed there and
at least could have fulfilled one of my childhood dreams to sing a song and
affection for microphone. Within 30 days of work in that company my friends
asked me to come along with them to attend the interview in a Educational
Trainers manufacturing company so that based on my early introduction to that
company they can also get jobs but unfortunately the only person got selected
on that day is me not the four my friends who forced me to attend the interview
but later pulled most of them into the same company. Primarily joined as a Sales
Engineer then turned as a Technical Sales Executive, Embedded Developer, Research
& Development Engineer and went to so called Aerospace company in Bangalore
as an R & D Incharge for a brief period and finally returned and settled in
Chennai as Controls Engineer in Siemens PLM/LMS/MSK thanks to Mr.Brahmanand for
finding me and brought to this totally new domain (Automotive &Mechanical)
and wonderful atmosphere to work with.
For a guy who always had greater interest and love
towards Tamil, writing in my half-baked English feels bit comfortable than the very
own Tamil, this should be the major influence on me by the years I spent as a Chennaite.
Always valued human relationships more than anything
else and never concentrated on wealth creation that’s why still expecting the
pay date at every month to pass the life
Long ago lost faith on almighty had a simple definition
for good & bad. If one’s activity hurt the others then that is bad
otherwise it is good. The most disturbing part of this Chennai life is several
times I have violated my own principle either due to demanding situation or lack
of insight, like a dialogue written by Sujatha in Mudhalvan if life is a VCR, I
would definitely want to erase those moments.
